Aww thank you :) you don’t have to be anonymous though!
She said, “I know you bad, but I want you bad.”
She said, “makes me so sad that I gotta leave you alone.”
But that was then and this is now.
I’m fuckin’ not playin’.
Never trying to give up coffee again. Dying.
-Taylor Swift” —
Why am I never going to be good enough for anyone? I’m just never enough.
I tend to have pretty weird and messed up dreams, but they usually don’t scare me. I woke up a little while ago from the scariest dream I’ve ever had. I’m not gonna write all about it here, but it was seriously messed up. It was a bunch of people going into a mall and torturing people in various ways. All the ways were crazy too. A lot were nothing you would ever think of happening or even see in a movie. So I somehow snuck out of this mall I was in, after being tortured and somehow surviving. I got to my house and they found me there. I was planning on jumping out the window to my room. I didn’t care if I died, I wasn’t going to let them get me. They were outside, about to come in, and they were yelling at me and saying they were surrounding my house anyways so if I was thinking of jumping it wouldn’t help. I heard the door to the house open and then I woke up. Thank god. Now I’m home alone and I’m freaking out because I’m really scared. A dream has never scared me like this before. I want to go back to sleep because I’m exhausted but I’m afraid I’ll have another dream. I tried to text someone but I guess maybe he’s sleeping. He could be ignoring me, but I hope he’s just sleeping. I feel bad, I just sent him like a million texts freaking out. I told him some of the things that happened in the dream too. He’s going to think I’m insane when he reads them. Anyways, sorry for whining. I’m just scared.
You taught me how to trust myself.
There’s a cold blooded wave running through your veins
Straight into your heart
But there’s nothing left to say, oh no, it’s much too late
Because you took it all, you took it all away.
Just me, myself, and all my millions. ;)
I’m not feeling all that great and most of my favorite people won’t even be at work because of graduation. I just kinda wanna stay home and maybe see brittney.